Wow… just realized how long it has been since I have updated Tanks blog! Time really goes by fast doesn’t it!! I really just need a place to put my feelings because my brain and my heart are not really in synch right now. Ever have that feeling that something is just “off” with your tripawd? That has been me the past few weeks. I can’t pin point what it is, but Tank is different. He has slowed down quite a bit, he isn’t eating quite as much, and he just seems really tired. We have taken him to the vet and done bloodwork. The vet says his numbers are perfect…but we know him better than the vet and I am just worried. He wasn’t due to have his xrays unitl March 20th but we went ahead and got his appointment bumped to Wednesday of this week. I will admit it… I am terrified. I think it is back, and I am not sure he can fight it again.
I loved seeing the blog on facebook last week about Tripawds getting sick.. it was exactly what I needed to read. He might be fine, and I know that, but I am just worried about my boy š I am going to be so pissed off ( sorry!) if it is back. It is such an evil disease, and it picked the wrong dog. I know we all feel this way so this is the best place for me to vent. He is the BEST dog in the world, and he doesn’t deserve to go though any of this. He has been licking his paw lately and that scares me. If he gets a tumor in another leg that will be the absolute cruelest thing in the world. I know cancer returns, but I am not ready, and he is not ready. I will update this after we see the doctor on Wednesday but I just needed a place to think on paper. He is my hero, he is my boy, and I need more time with him. Please, don’t let this be bad news. Please just let him be getting older and slowing down. Please…
It sure is good tohear from you and to kow Tankis doing well!! And he IS doing well!
A little less stamina not quite as much energy..e’s a veru big boy and life on three legs does make you more tired sometimes as time goes by. And with less exercise comes less of an appetite…thus not as hungry!
But boy oh boy, you have certainly come to the right place to express worrisome thoughts! We all do tht very well! And we do a great job of jumping ahead to worse possible case scenarios…..onl to be relieved to fid it’s something so minor! And that will be the case with Tank!
This is a talk I give myself everyday, several times a day…”I will let NOTHING rob usof our time together! I WILL stay in the ow, the moment, the present!”
I owe it to Happy Hannah to be fully present with her and only surround it with the most positive, calm and upbeat energy possible. And as I see some changes in her, it can be more of a challenge. I’ve only done updated blood work, etc. when my concerns get the best of me…..but completely chicken out when it comes to xrays! For me, that helps me “be more dog” as I decided after chemo was complete back in May, we would just get on with a life free of certain tests…..guess it’s called burying one’s head in the sand!! That’s such an individual decision.
Just know we are all here t support you and to cheer you and Tank on!
Tank is thoroughly enjoying his life! Remember, he has gotten more bely rubs, more treats, more loving that you, or he, ever dreamed wold be possible back in July!
Tank is a strong boy and he has no intention of going anywhere for a very long time!!
Please let us know how your appointment goes, okay? Eat lots of chocolate berween now and then..it helps!!
Lots of hugs to all your pack! Now go do something that makes Tank’s tail wag and know that all is well! It sure is in his world!
Sally and Happy Hannah
Crossing my fingers , toes and eyes… (and a few other things thanks to age and gravilty!!) for you and Tank..
Keep us posted.. let us know…
we are all thinking of you tomorrow!!
Christine…. with Franklin in her heartā„